Man is the place where God fell to earth
Some notes..revised 22 January 2009
Put simply, one of the main claims of this site and hence the information contained within and without it, was and is the presence of some universal truth existing as the primordial fabric of all things. This meant the sort of truth that could be a point of contact to something more real and of greater relevance than what was currently on offer, whilst at the same time going mostly unnoticed by the current human operating systems of reasonable accommodation and/or the mimicking of sensible conductivity.
What this site really tries to be then, is a dendrite for space. I grew up in a certain way and by the time the gregorian count was 13, I had developed a strong and sometimes overwhelming relationship with something I could only describe as 'time'; a space without sense; a space between conscious moments of normal waking life, something 'other' so compelling that it seemed to be calling out for ones attention.
Much of the graphical and literal content for this site is a direct result of having empty and open hands in accordance with an entropic theory concerning the relationship between an end and a beginning of time. In other words, one starts with everything one needs for ones goal, and as one experiences the passage of time towards an apparent change to the start, one slowly sheds those things which are no longer relevant, and through the shedding, new things arise. It was this journey of reflection on the light that allowed the initiation of a distinctly unique adaptation to reality which then enabled what was naturally being lost to be kept, and what was being taken in, to be organised. This allowed the encompassing and integration of new and for all practical purposes, self evolving arts and mechanisms operating in conjunction with an almost irrational (irrational to the west, rational to the east) reception to the normally accepted ignorance of cosmic information (assumedly due to the inevitable complexity of being a part of an ever fractalising matrix). Thus the only issue that ever seemed to arise from these publications was the concern of misunderstanding. Our complexity compels most of us to label ourselves simply rather than the alternative, to seek simplicity, rather than the alternative, and to deny the obvious, rather than the alternative.
I have broiled over this site many times, often concerned at the impact that my ego revelations might have on others, even though my strongest hope was that in at least some way, they could be entertaining. Also without a face to hinder the expressions, we could all avoid that insane part of us that judges before understanding, knows before knowing and organises before being organised. In this way I was free to write what ever came to mind and in such a way as to be able to filter the readership by an understanding of the ego nature (TAO). The next obvious choice was to be clear about the challenge that we all face and share, and that whilst we can all feel alone, the concept of feeling alone can be reclasified as a type of oxymoronism, since the ever obvious multiplicity of earthly existence is ever provable by even the simplest of cognitive arrays and so one can never be alone, only feel so. It should also be noted that the term simple cognitive array may also be an oxymoronism, since nothing created by the divine can ever be simple.
Worthy of note is that on several separate occasions that spanned months apart, I edited this site after spotting outlandish spelling and grammatical errors and curiously found that the spirit that had created the original words, was no longer the one that was making changes. This idea is tackled in the book "Naked Lunch" and expresses the question of whether or not this type of blind editing was compromising the integrity of the sites' creative content in some way. The issue was eventually resolved by the acceptance of the evolving nature of a respective experience and thus there was able to be created conscious links between the momentary fluxes in perspective.
Therefore, what is being attempted on this site is not a completely individual venture per se, in so much as it tries to express the essence of the united human experience through a celebration of the single instances. It may be only a remarkable coincidence that the two are for practical reasons, the one and the same and that any differences represent natural fluctuations of crystalising meta-programs we call our mind, that are biologically created in order to direct the outcome of awareness towards what are deemed 'comfortable' trajectories.
So we naturally seek what we lack and what we lack is what we do not have and what we don't have is anything that arrives for inspection in the foyer of our conscious hallway from a number of different channels. In most waking moments then, we do not recognise the completeness of being as that which begins an eternity ago beyond the point of our own first conceptions and now resides in the moment flux of vortex-like movements of matter so fine it is invisible to the naked eye. Instead we have become the great questions in the model of nature, and what we naturally seek is the answer. I put it across that the answer is already present somewhere and somehow and that it needs only to be accepted.
It is through this space that vectors to truth in the more common and ancient tongues are described, somewhat submerged between the spaces in the dialogue so as to reach the distant and sometimes abandoned channels of universal cosmic awakening, or what I like to call, divine sparks. My own personal relationship with this space has yielded a myriad of experiences ranging from highs or what I thought were highs, and lows or what I thought were lows in this thing we call life. All the while I have hectically attempted to note things down in some way for future consideration and reflection, hoping to one day catalogue enough points and intentional vertices so as to deduce the meaning of it all. This is after all, the human experience; this movement we call by a form.
This motion has evolved many moments to pass into being who's natures are most probably as unique as anyone's could be, allowing for the recognition and acceptance of a terra firma on which all idiosyncrasies can meet and come together. Without this common ground we could not translate the deep inner time into symbolic and rhythmic channels. It is in and on this common ground that we find ourselves both with and without each other. Here perhaps lies a true conundrum of being that is often glossed over by starry eyed infants in search of form and essence that they cannot find. They think grand ideas but do not ask where the idea comes from. They propose grand ideas, but do not say where the grand ideas came from.
Life then, appears to be the passage of consciousness through matter, context through content, or the reverse; the passage of matter through consciousness, content through context. Either way, the process takes a lifetime to occur; like a single note in the great song. It does not seem unreasonable to assume then, that the greatest mysteries of the cosmos are no further away than ones own finger tips and that the type of care and respect given to this experience is what enables higher and lower functions to come into highly organised states of existence. The ignorance of this unmistakable fact creates a confusion called the 'ego' and the remnants of its inevitable characteristics are found in the Tao, the relationship of absolutes.
Clear as mud? Mud is an interesting term after all. Loosely taken it can describe 99% of the cosmos, or 1% of it. And the place where this is all occurring? Time.
To be touched by things that have no weight is to sense the open spaces ahead. Movement into this space is the challenge, and heeding the form is the key.
For more direct light play try here
For the extrapolated expressions of the previous modality try here
For something more personal and quite impossible, try here
Note A Updated 09 August 2009
The original purpose of this site was to share information both in and of a realm that seemed at least to the writer to be universally accessible and limitless. The fact that personal indulgences and flaws would also be shared via the same transmissions was not initially a concern, following the Platonic ideal that "the truth" (what ever it might be) "was good and that the good was beautiful". How could one not then, wish to share such beauty and wonder as truth?
It was only much later after arriving at some rather startling conclusions about the complexity and nature of the human condition, that the stark idealistic expressions placarded across the internet here appeared in some ways to be sharpened way too jagged for the casual compass. From this, projections of eventual misunderstandings prompted at first the masking, and then a retracting of the written endeavor towards a more simplistic and retarded destination. 'Harm to the undiagnosed and confused' as it was felt, 'was to be avoided at all costs until such time as the tracks on which the trains of thought ran along, could be examined by the cosmic equivalent of an OH&S committee' (Karma). In other words, I came to doubt my purpose and so an internal audit of all viable information was executed in order to conclude the true status and weight of the situation.
Now though, even as the remaining shades of organised spirits repeat their final cautions about careful administration of such recognised fruits in public forums, it is gladly imparted that the original purpose of the principle individual and the web site born from its eventual expressions, had never died or withered, but had instead been placed in some almost strange and ritualistic review, for, and under its own authoritative systems, towards the resolution of the aforementioned concerns. It had long been held that the flows of divine creation were not always led towards straight avenues, but could instead be held aloft in cyclic whirlpools of activity for some time. It is from these ways that they are now remolded by a true sincerity towards the recovery of the initial goals previously reported.
As such energies are now returning to their previous modality, it inspires the writer to once again encourage the seeker to trust in the almost archaic idealistic adventure of beauty, truth and all the other essences of virtue that are more often than not, only ever found in the one place, perhaps only in the one time and occur almost like sparks in the night for the eventual benefit of all; even though they may initially only warm the fires of the one. It is towards this venture that this site will slowly be returned to its former ambiguous specifications in the hope that those that can see, will reflect that it can be known and in some or other rather riskee manner, be expressed, shared and understood.
Forward then, to some local attempts to capture eternity on at least one side of the coin, per chance of making the other side plain to see in the light of heaven. Good fortune to one and all.
Note B Added 04 January 2010/ Last edited Sep 2014
Alert dear people - alert! The illusion of being is to think that any one moment is just like another! Time creates a linear meaning and habit circles develop that create then moments that appear to be now moments. The thought that 'it's just another day' causes the mind to lose its sharp experience of the truth - the experience that is, of self in the moment.
If you are here it is because there remain certain questions living active lives in the back of your mind. Questions like WHAT AM I? Or WHY AM I? And then perhaps WHO AM I? And maybe HOW AM I? Or at least the old WHAT THE BLAZES IS GOING ON ANYWAYS? These are points taken on the way.
There are notable and definable boundaries between certain parts of the human psyche. Conscious awareness of the 'now' experience provides a certain attribute to existence, namely the infinitely addressable temporal causality loop of the now and the not now. The normal abstract method of time perception can fluctuate between awareness of single static ego-object interpretations of now moments, to an awareness of flow and of measuring a 'string' of a subjective experience, and even to the realisation that the now moment is a fluidic state of variable change encompassed within a sphere of awareness.
So one can exist as an experience of time, that has length in a linear way and so is expressible geometrically through objective symbolism. Its beginning can be thought of as a point emanating from a fixed position in three dimensional space and time, flowing outwards (upwards, inwards - its all relative movement in metaphysical space, but not so in physical space) and expanding spherically like a pulse from a center, creating a fourth dimensional arrow that appears to be all the previous dimensions rolled into one. The span of conscious awareness is then directly proportional to the diameter that encompasses the sphere of the emanating pulse. As a person's concentration deepens and lengthens, this diameter increases and may display both positive and negative linear aspects of conscious experience as a respective radius. As the diameter of the sphere of consciousness has a growing point of awareness in relative equal lengths from an abstract source (center), it is possible to perceive different realities from different perspectives (a beginning and end) as being the same subject that is viewable from different points, namely a future and a past. Experience of the true self (towards divinity) seems dependent on the length of conscious effort towards experiencing this aspect of being. In my experience, when short efforts are made without satisfactory success, the interpretation of such uncommon complexity eventually fails and the natural focus collapses and returns to a tighter perception of the ego self, with a now noticeable 'other' whose presence eventually requires some type of classification and acknowledgement.
Humans create idiosyncratic relationships to their respective worlds, and can sometimes create inner suffering by denying natural instincts like the presence of unexpected sensory or emotional perception or other mental (and what might be termed physical) anomalies that do not commonly fit into the widely accepted paradigm of being a working/consuming 'clothed animal' with a predestined turn on the wheel of a large and all encompassing machine that for what ever reason appears to be running too fast, out of control and with no one good or sincere at the helm.
Instead of exploring the possibilities, it can seem easier to classify and edit our experiences of life to fit the past instead of learning to find relevance in the apparent ordinary. So as humans commonly react to the experience of reality internally and spasmodically, sometimes without the understanding of a relatively unified existing causality, that behavior (movement) can form the basis for how reality is expected to be dealt with in all future states and so the errors continue ad infinitum. This is best represented by the use of alcohol in social settings. Without real equality in a system of reality, the strongest or the loudest ideas can appear to be the great channels of wisdom and value. True equality means that there is only ever one subject and so only ever one object, the self.
To those on the path, a clear and easily defensible objective for anyone on the road is that an alert state (attention) achieves clarity and clarity requires nothing other than what is already potentially present in ones own experience of life in order to pierce the once thought impenetrable and to fill the once thought insatiable. To desire something 'other' in order to reach fulfillment, to desire more of this or that, to wish for something other than what the infinitely divine already affords, is then to imply imperfection or dependency away from the truth of what is already available, which cannot be the way. If heaven really exists because it is eternal, then that means that it has always existed and so must exist right now, somewhere and for all time. That then is the object that can one day become the subject.
Note C - Added October 2013
"In the beginning was the word, and the word was God" - thinking of McKenna - RIP
Why is it that man-made tools started being made hundreds of thousands of years ago but language is only a relatively recent event. Why didn't we need language to live back then, and why is it such a major part of our lives now? What is the relationship between mind and sound? What then, is the purpose of life?
Mind is real. We all know this, but we also don't normally concern ourselves with the weight of its truth because we don't think that we have very much to do with mind at any particular time and perhaps MIND is something that only other people have or that you find it in a book or pay money for or maybe win in the lottery. If you are coming to these words and you also don't normally concern yourself with MIND, let yourself be assured now and for all time, that MIND is all things. Everything. Nothing you experience is what you think it is, it is all in fact MIND. This is why when your mind breaks down, YOU break down. You ARE MIND. You exist in a personalised space that IS MIND but that is also so amazingly complex and beyond our own conceptions of what it really is or could be, that we perceive ourselves as shapes that we call 'bodies' with 'heads', limbs' and 'faces' and live entire life times with this being enough. This is in fact all MIND, but its unimaginable complexity forces most human beings to simply categorise themselves as sounds linked to shapes, and little more than that. This is as far as we can go - as much as we can do. Apparently it would blow our minds just to realise what our limbs really are, leave alone our hands and feet. To see MIND in all its full obviousness would in some way freak us all out and change us irrecoverably; at least in our current state. We are just not ready for the complete raw truth that we are all at least a part of. Not yet.
If you really are one of those people that didn't know this already, then you should also know this; since there is that which you are - MIND - as all is MIND, and this MIND is so amazingly vast, intelligent, and all encompassing etc that it could not possibly NOT KNOW itself to be MIND, then you my friend are something that is MIND - AND - something that is NOT MIND; because as we have already covered, you don't know what you are and since MIND is all things, MIND would naturally know all that it is. Such is the wonder of MIND.
So this leaves us with you. What are you? If I asked you would you know? Would you have more than a twitch or muttered breath? Is there anything more than these things to deal with? Where are these questions on your priority list?
Notes on the atman - 25 10 14
It is surely one of the greatest of ironies that the mystery of what is called life, does not create an immediate and lasting response in an individual, since the center of the individual is so immediate in space and time that it attains its own sense of space and time. This is the atman.
The literal side of life thinks that myth is that which tries to be a type of mirror or abstract reflection of truth. The mythical side of life is perpetually aware that the literal is that which tries to be a type of mirror or abstract reflection of truth. If both sides then, are pools of reflections, by their own undeniable understanding, they must be for something other, something not of reflection but of expression to be reflected. This is the atman.
Outside of the atman all is sense and sensibility. Sense and sensibility go together in life; they are the detail and that which seeks the detail. The details only matter to other details, the senses only matter to other senses as sensibilities only matter to other sensibilities. Outside of the atman, all is change as all exists on a flattened plane of time, each discernable and selectable object seen as another point on a line.
In the atman there is no change. All is at once available and knowable and so there is no need to seek anything since all work has been completed outside of the atman. In this space there is both nothing and nothing missing; everything and yet only the one. Time is eternal since there is no change in self as was previously experienced, although somehow something new and clear makes available information of a new type and clarity. The atman is pure self, not ego self, but that which can be purified from the self to be perceived and acknowledged as self. This is why death is a cleansing, because one is cleansed of ones ignorance that has been accumulating over decades in physical structures. One is once again able to see in purity that which exists to be seen, since what is seen and what is real are the fabric of reality for any sentient being in any state.
In the atman, there are no questions as for a question to exist, it would require time for some moment of uncertainty in the soul life allowing a question to arise. Since there is no time, there is only a continual resounding clarity that is both the question and the answer together at once, having evolved something that is both previous modalities rolled into one. Thus the atman is that which becomes infinitely and automatically verifiable by the very fact of its own existence.
Note : D - Added December /2015
The western man worships himself and believes that life is about self esteem and self image above all else. The eastern man worships something greater than himself and believes that life is about divine esteem and a lack of self image above all else.
What happens when the past disappears and the future has arrived?
There is such a short time to understand what this all is, what this time, this life, this moment is. If it appears like a long time, be sure that this is a trick of the light. After all, anything that is finite, is essentially short. All things are short next to eternity, and this space, this event that is here to be understood by that which can understand, must surely be the central theme of any given moment of sanity. And yet to abandon those caught behind the veil seems sometimes neither right or advantageous. So here in this momentary phase of expression I implore you the reading system of mind and will to look to what can be created from the union of all things into one; one truth. Your truth. The truth of you. This truth is part of eternity. This truth is love.
All things evolve into and towards love. There can be little else more obvious in a mans every thought and action than to work towards more fulfilling love. Those that have fallen out of love and into the past, tend to defend and protect the past. Those who are walking away from the past look towards a future and they inevitably do so with love in mind. Those that can see that the past and the future are the same thing, already live in love.
Love is that which can connect reason and mischief, peace and anger, time and space.
Love is never wanting to be apart because love is always being together.
Love is that which is more than the sum of its parts because it is the core of all possible parts.
When love is recognised as universal, it becomes the link between all spaces, all places and all misunderstandings. When love is seen as divine, it becomes a link with heaven and all truth becomes accessible even to the mortal being. When there is no longer a separation or difference between a mortal being and heaven, there ceases to be just a mortal being.
Note : E - Added January 2016
Time as an illusion of space
The western mind believes without doubt that life evolved accidently, otherwise it would not be a western mind. Like a ball of frozen water rolling down a mountain side and growing larger and building momentum as it goes, so names the western mind the myth of material life. Of course at some point, the one ball must break up into many balls and all begin travelling together on the same gravity driven journey that slowly evolves complexity over time. This is the western myth. Then at some point, a small group of the balls got together and decided that since the 'journey of the ball through space' must be chaotic, they and their friends would need to become the decision makers and all other balls would have to fall behind them. Any ball that dared to exceed the new leaders' order in some way, would be removed and dealt with by those other balls in the service of those who had separated themselves from the whole. Life then is something always moving to the western mind, sometimes out of controll and needing the expert hands of ignorance to herd the mass of similar forms towards that which was always the destination, regardless of the sounds made or actions taken by anyone.
Contrast this with the Buddhists, Hindus, Taoists and others who claim to have found worth and complexity not in movement, but in stillness. As a Buddhist sits quietly in the same position, the westerner zooms past and drives his mind in all directions trying to accumulate as much as possible, believing that the larger the ball, the easier it is to accumulate more and grow in size because in the western mind, size is everything. It may apear that the ancient adage "All things are measured by a ruler" has driven the western mind insane.
However most of mans accumulated toys do not serve him, they limit him to the finite and so in spending all his time in the measuring of the ball and its apearance, man becomes a slave to it and the ball becomes the center of life in place of the soul. The one thing that serves all men - the mind, is ignored via indoctrinates in the west. Only memory and beneficial interpretation are valued in the west. The servants of life are ignored and the gifts that they provide are hoarded.
What you see is a bubble of the past. Burst it at your leisure sir, for when it disappears, only the truth will remain standing. Just like a chic must let go of the shell of the egg and the caterpillar must let go of the simple but effective form that it once had, so too we must know and see and want to be free of the bubble of the past. Only then, can we appear as we truly are; eternal and ever present, paradoxically both all that there is, and all that is not. Where once the outside filtered inside, there does the inside shine in all directions so that there becomes only one direction.
Note F: Added March 2016
They are tied to their bodies as their bodies to the tide
Here by choice or here by afterthought, we all appear to be here for the one big reason. The reason that man cannot help himself from acting in and reacting to the divine event is that man is a part of the divine event, but not the entirety or completeness of the divine event. All a man ever needs to do is to clearly and honestly express the truth; the truth of the present moment.
There is a moment of existence that is divine, and this is the present moment, known to some as the immanent moment or moment of immanence. In this moment all that occurs is divine as nothing else could have occurred but this, since the reality of the moment has passed the critical point of no-return or certainty, and so all expressions of it are in some way divine and thus lead towards wholeness and completeness and all manner of assistance to the individual. So when someone is expressing the truth of their individual moment; that is, expressing themselves, this is a divine act as it is dealing with divine information gleamed from a higher source of being than the interpretation of the sensory array. That is to say, it is gleamed in a place of light, reflection and meaning allocation: that place of the divine. Information is received to be understood and the integration of this information leads to a better encompassing and direction of ones self; the star of the present moment.
However at no time does or can or will the human part of the divine event ever become more important or more relevant or more essential to the divine event. That humanity is a part of something so unimaginable means that there is no humanity as such, only a humanistic level of the divine event. It is noted to be THE divine event and not A divine event, as it is the only event ever to be taken into question as it is always the same event, or as some might know it to be; eternal. Being eternal and ever present, it is always to be found with contemplation, which is to say that any contemplation without the divine as part of its parameters becomes simply madness; madness outside of the divine event, the moment of immanence.
The moment of immanence comes to a man as a deep silence, a collecting of focus or concentration. To sports people and those interested in competition it is known as the 'groove' or the 'zone' where time appears to be moving more slowly and one is able to capture various different angular, positional and valuation perspectives in what appears to be the time frame of a 'blink of an eye' or a split second, and thus become able to perform sense defying feats of all sorts. This experience is the moment of immanence, where the conscious energy of a person - that which moves inside the body and can be sensed with patience and practice, comes together in such a way as to create a larger mind space than was before available, allowing for faster, clearer and more imaginative solutions to the situation at hand. To those who have sought any kind of skill or purpose, this is known and it may assist others to build on that experience; that is their understanding of the self, the divine experience.
When working with other people, it can be a delight to be sharing and receiving immanent information, even though it may not be relevant to the organic systems that most people associate with. In high stress situations, information gathering and sharing by human beings can create a group state of the immanent experience and suddenly minds that had only been connected by geography or category can find themselves bound by personal and intimate moments that are ephemeral outside of those joined by them.
To attempt to exist outside of the immanent moment is to fall or dive into shadow. People bound to shadow will always find themselves drawn in by the gravity of the relative time dilation found suddenly to be occurring in place of the immanent moment. It can thus become difficult for those surrounded by darkness to navigate out of the shadow of the past without the clear understanding that the immanent moment is to be found in silence. Even if silence is not found easily, there in its place will be the true expression of the present moment, the moment of immanence, the divine experience.
Situations do not change. Only people change.
This is where I am today. Between the light of the first movement and the time of the last change.