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"Maps, symbols, mandalas, petroglyphs and other symbolic works are used all over the world to express the link between the inner and the outer, between the self and the world, the individual and the environment. Such maps enrich us and bind us together. As we have seen, they are synchronicities, patterns of meaning and connection between the mental, spiritual and material worlds."

Taken from The Philosophers Stone - Chaos, Synchronicity and the hidden order of the world.'

By F.David Peat



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In the 1990s the world was being introduced to computer created communication channels and a web of vast connections that could link people from as far away as technology could reach. This site was originally created in 1997 so that a few things of philosophical and spiritual interest could be shared with others over this emerging net .

How Did This Happen?

There came one night the experience of a type of disassociation, when seated at a desk in my lounge room whirling in a moment of distraction, I happened to open and begin to use Windows Paint on my personal computer. There was no particular reason for this decision, I only knew that I had never really tried using it before and had always held a natural interest in the creation of art. Simply speaking, it was an action intended to give my hands and eyes something to do whilst my mind worked on my inner self. Even as I casually went on to create a random image with the computer mouse and software on the monitor, my attention was primarily focused on the conceptualization of existential conundrums that I had just assumed life, by its very existence, had created for me to examine. It was in that moment whilst I sat and thought and reasoned, that I began to notice something strange about the image that was being created on the screen. I realised that I could recognise certain shapes and the arrangement of the lines and colors appeared to be definitely organised. This was when THIS image came into the world on my computer at the behest of my will, but not with my conscious rational intention. Examining the image further I realised the complexity of the ideas connected with it, and finally concluded that the associated meanings were both of a deeply personal and introspective nature as well as incredibly holistic and dare one say; 'cosmic' in intention. Although on the face of it, the image really was simple and minimalist, it was at the same time profound and evolutionary, especially since I could not account for it in my planning or expected it from my limited talents at the time. Through the passage of time and much more investigation into human awareness and the boundary dissolving compounds supplied by the universe, I slowly found my world opening up in places I didn't know existed. The subsequent thoughts and insights emerging from the images that kept appearing at my finger tips as well as the interests behind them, began a continuous drive to further define this site, its content and its purpose.

The Design

Perhaps because I wanted the site to resemble the experience of a book, the site was created with a front page or cover that gives a color or tone to what awaits beyond.

The first web site background design of this 'front cover' was across a white image, in direct opposition to the popular black background sites I had become accustomed to viewing on the web at the time. NOT drawn by me - unknown artist The image of Jack B Nimble graced the front alone. The image itself was not created by me, but something I had downloaded from a shared network so was impossible to trace or find very much information about. Even so, the abstract nature of the image spoke to me about the path ahead.


The next site design for the front door was slightly more brazen, as I was growing in confidence with the drawing software and could see the multiple ways one could represent the interesting tools that I seemed to have uncovered. Conundrum Image The word Conundrum also came into view even though the site address was still In this image, the brightness of thought, the metaphor of the moon, astral space in the midst of red biological cell life and the vertical presentation of the totem were the themes wishing to be expressed. I felt I had found a new language with which to communicate emotional relationships with, and it allowed access to some amazing experiences. In many ways, because I was uncertain of the full scope of the light and of the role I had to play in it, all things appeared to be a conundrum to me.


The next site design was still labeled Conundrum but with a more integrated feeling. Conundrum Image 2 This next change was the real 'turning of the page' in terms of feeling comfortable with what was happening and I was more confident that I was not going crazy, but just steering through socially unmentionable cultural taboos. Now armed with the similar experiences of Terence McKenna (TMK) and the powerful influences of the Overmind, it was full steam ahead for this ship along the ocean of chaos. Pictures like THIS, THIS and THIS were leading me deeper into the causal matrix and to my good fortune, I felt very much at home.


Excalibur Image Having then reached the hub of what I could only describe as the Holy Grail, I felt no need to post a separate front door for the next site transformation I instead went with a front index page of links with as little direct verbal explanation of anything as possible. I felt that my experiences and conclusions were becoming more and more obvious and thus more and more separate from the normally constructed world of television and simian law, so I was attempting to create as much ambiguity as possible to distract from my paddling through the turbulence of tightly expected social order.


Flower Image Some time later, believing that there was no point in trying to be creative if I could not also be honest and allow my written work to accompany the abstract art as they had always done in my local sphere, I adopted a more user friendly style of organisation incorporating visual and auditory jewels as well as the always present ambiguity. I also hoped to verbalise more complex ideas so as to complete a portion of this perceived 'human wave' that we are all trying to ride.


Then for several years, this front_4 colored banner I loved so much greeted new travelers at the entrance to the site. This picture was such a wonder to me that I found it hard to let go of it. On the day it appeared, the image represented the idea of life being a point in the center of an array of movement - represented by color. The adjacent particle represented by the red sphere (not shown in this image) was my consciousness supposedly coming closer to the center of being. Of course at all times I am reminded by friends and family that it is also "a pretty picture".


Thus the site will inevitably change through the passage of moments and I am certain that the future will surprise me as much as it does anyone else. After all, there is much more to this moment than meets the senses. Isn't there?




"We don't actually know what our predicament is. We are up against a phenomenon which we can barely bring into focus in our cognitive sphere; and its the phenomenon of our own existence."

- Terence McKenna


Some notes..written 22 January 2009, revised recently 8^/ .

How can matter have no substance?


Put simply, one of the main aims of this site and hence the information contained within and without it, is to express, to point out, to make reference to, the presence of a universal truth existing as the primordial fabric of all things; detectable by all but remaining unseen - provable by anyone, but with few experts. That is, to suggest that there is available to all and any, a sort of undeniable, plainly describable truth that can be a personal point of contact to something more real and of greater relevance and importance than what is currently on offer in the human markets of objects and their hierarchies, or the cultures of memory and their actions, whilst at the same time going mostly unnoticed by the general human operating systems of reasonable accommodation and/or the mimicking of sensible conductivity.

In the hopes of creating greater clarity, it should be noted that this which is being discussed is not just some mystical thing, and not just some abstract thing, or just some ineffable thing created to sell books or mystery or momentary intrigue, but in truth, it is THE thing; that which is more than just a thing, that which creates, binds, sustains and dissolves all things, so something so immense and intricate that it crosses the very borders of description, sensation and comprehension. It is that which can be said to be both a thing and not a thing because all things come from this, exist in this and go to this.

As with most universal anomalies, it is easy to be grateful that what is being shared on this site did not begin here, but can be found to have been related through the endless generations, in many different languages and from varying geographic and cultural environments. That which has been praised for eons past is praised here, and the only issue arising from this particular celebration of light and life and beauty, is the fact that it remains to the masses of human minds, the most hidden and seemingly invisible truth that humanity has yet to grasp; perhaps because it cannot be held by the grip of blindness like culture or history. It can only be embraced by submitting to its authority, and this act cannot be taken without first dissolving the ignorance of ones own personal misunderstanding.

What is being attempted on this site then, is not a completely individual venture per se, in so much as it tries to express the essence of the united human experience through a celebration of a single instance. It may only be a remarkable coincidence that all individual things are for practical reasons, the one and the same and that any differences represent natural fluctuations of crystalising meta-programs we call our minds engaged in meta-links that are electro-biologically created in order to direct the outcome of awareness towards an evolutionary process.

It will not be easy, this is understood. From the moment we human beings are brought into the world of family and culture and history, we are bombarded with all manner of restrictions and expectations that exist exclusively in the human world and are continuously expressed in the arts, communications and personal reflections so that each new generation becomes bound in a similar way as the last. In a way, we are given lenses which distort our perceptions and make the realisation of that which is truly real, beautiful and eternal, very difficult, and perhaps ultimately unlikely. If one attempted to simply give away a piece of the perception of this eternal quality, it might be described as a 'timelessness' : an essence without separating qualities - a space between the moments of normal waking expectations and something so 'other' and so compelling, that it can seem to overwhelm ones attention when successfully observed. Such is the power and ineffable wonder of life's true gifts. Such are the rewards of sincere and heart felt commitments.

To navigate the time we find ourselves in, we naturally seek what we lack and what we lack is what ever arrives for inspection in the foyer of our conscious hallway, from a number of different channels. In most waking moments then, we do not recognize the completeness of being as that which began an eternity ago beyond the point of our own first conception and now resides in the vortex of moments and movements of matters so fine and distinct that they are invisible to the clothed mind. Thus blinded to the truth, we have become each others great questions finding ourselves in the midst of harmonic nature, and what we naturally seek then is the answers. Although we are taught by our forebears that the answer is just another question, I put it across that the answer is already present somewhere and somehow and that it needs only to be recognized and accepted.

To Start -

Much of the graphical and literal content of this site is a direct result of having empty and open hands in accordance with an entropic theory concerning the relationship between an end and a beginning of time. In other words, one starts with everything one needs for ones goal, and as one experiences the passage of time towards an apparent change to the start, one slowly sheds those things which are no longer relevant, and through the shedding, something new arises or becomes conscious. It was this journey of reflection on the arising and dissolving that allowed the initiation of a distinct 'awakening adaptation' to reality, which then enabled what was naturally being lost to be kept, and what was being taken in to be organised. This then allowed the encompassing and integration of new and for all practical purposes, self evolving intentions, arts and mechanisms coherently operating in conjunction with an almost irrational (irrational to the west, rational to the east) open receptivity to the normally accepted fallacy/ignorance of cosmic information. Perhaps due to the inevitable complexity of being a definable part of an ever fractalising matrix.

These intentions have evolved many moments to pass into being that allowed for the recognition and acceptance of a terra firma on which all idiosyncrasies can meet and come together. Without this common ground we could not translate the deep inner time into symbolic and rhythmic channels. It is in and on this common ground that we find ourselves both with and without each other. Here perhaps lies a true conundrum of being that is often glossed over by starry individuals caught in the confusion of their predicament. They think grand ideas but do not ask where the idea comes from. They propose grand ideas, but do not say where the grand ideas came from.

Life then, appears to be the passage of consciousness through matter, context through content, or the reverse; the passage of matter through consciousness, content through context. Either way, the process often requires an individual lifetime to manifest; like a single note in a great song. However from the acceptance that life is not some mystery found in a dusty book or foreign land, it does not seem unreasonable to suggest that the greatest mysteries of the cosmos are no further away than ones own finger tips and that the type of care and respect given to this experience that we call life is what enables higher and lower functions to come into highly organized states of existence. The ignorance of this unmistakable fact creates a confusion called the 'ego' and the remnants of its inevitable characteristics are found in the Tao, the timeless description of the ultimate relationship of absolutes.

It is through objects like these that vectors to truth in the more common and ancient tongues are described here, somewhat submerged between the spaces in the dialogue so as to reach the distant and sometimes abandoned channels of universal cosmic awakening, or what I like to call, the divine sparks. My own personal relationship with this space has yielded a myriad of experiences ranging from highs or what I thought were highs, and lows or what I thought were lows. All my life I have hectically attempted to note things down in some way for future consideration and reflection, hoping to one day catalogue enough points and intentional vertices so as to deduce the true direction and meaning of it all. This is after all, the human experience; the movement we sound with a form.

Clear as mud? Mud is an interesting term after all. Loosely taken it can describe 99% of the cosmos, or 1% of it. And the place where this is all occurring? Time.

To be touched by things that have no weight is to sense the open spaces ahead. Movement into this space is the challenge, and heeding the light is the key.


Peace Unity Illumination




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